Today's Devotional Thought
July 28, 2011 by Wendy Foreman
Do You Love Me?
We all have weaknesses.
How many times have you prayed and asked the Lord to take away a weakness in your life? We all want to be strong in this life. We want to be able to do all things perfectly without any weaknesses showing.
Recently, my family had the privilege of visiting a church where we were vacationing. The Lord spoke to me during that service and He asked me, “What do I love more than him?” The Pastor spoke from John 21:15-17 where Jesus is having a conversation with Peter asking him if he loves his sheep (the people). Peter repeatedly says yes and Jesus tells him to feed them. But one of the questions that stands out is “Do you love me more than these?”
That is when the Lord asked me the question. What do you love more than me?
Whether we want to admit it or not, there are many things in all of our lives that we love and put before the Lord. Truth be told friends, it is all His. So in that moment with the Lord I was faced with the question of how much do I love Him?
I am a Pastor’s wife and I have been called to serve the Lord along side my husband. Not only that but I also know that the Lord has called me to lead in women’s ministry and also to start another ministry (which I will share with all of you when I can). What is going to stand between me and the Lord? What is going to mean more to me then my relationship with Him and what He is calling me to do?
As sad as this is going to sound, my weaknesses are what have held me back from doing many things for God: my fear of rejection, my insecurity, my lack of confidence and my low self esteem. I have laid these at the feet of Jesus and I sometimes find myself taking them back (why I am not sure but I do and I have to take them back to Jesus). These weaknesses are holding me back; they are the thorn in my flesh and by focusing on them, I am “loving them” more than Jesus.
Let me ask you that same question, what do you love more then God? What weakness is holding you back from serving him with reckless abandonment?
At the end of that service the Pastor quoted the verses out of 2 Corinthians. I have read them over and over again and I realized something. Yes, I have weaknesses and I have prayed for them to be removed. But do you know what? They are weaknesses that I battle and they aren’t going away. But I have laid them at the feet of Jesus.
Something else that I realized those weaknesses is that even though they make me weak, I am STRONG in Jesus.
It is not about the abilities I have to serve him, it truly is just about my availability. Those weaknesses keep me at the feet of Jesus asking for strength to do His will, to step out in faith and do the things that he is calling me to do.
Paul states it beautifully…”I take pleasure in my weaknesses…that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” I feel strong in the Lord today because I know I am weak without Him.
Friends, I don’t know what you have burning in your heart to do for God. I don’t know what your weaknesses are, but what I know is that when we recognize our weaknesses, accept them, and cry out to the Lord for His strength, then sisters….there’s no telling what we are going to do for Him.