Today's Devotional Thought
October 12, 2011 by Rachel Piferi
Broken and Useful
I ran the following devotion in April and I thought of it this morning as I glanced down at the broken face of my iPod. I wanted to share it with you again today.
About 9 months ago, I dropped my iPod touch on my bathroom floor and cracked the face of it. I was really upset when it happened, but I was also relieved to find that it still worked. Even though it had a big break down the screen, the screen still worked and I could still use it to play music, watch videos, and everything else.
I had planned to get it fixed months ago, but never got around to it. Technically, there was no reason to fix it because it still worked. But, I wanted to fix it because I simply didn't like the fact that it looked broken and had a big, visible break down the screen.
Yesterday, however, I saw the brokenness a little differently and I will forever look at the broken screen with the fresh perspective I gained yesterday.
I was at the gym yesterday working out with Wendy. On the way to the gym, we had been talking about some things going on in our lives and I was sharing with her how weak I was feeling due to all of the changes that have occurred in my life in the past two years. Honestly friends, I am feeling pretty broken and I have days where I wonder how I can possibly be useful when I feel so weary and broken. Our family has gone through a lot and it has really taken its toll on us.
Do you ever have days or seasons like that? Periods of time where you just feel so weary and so broken and you wonder how you could possibly be effective for God?
After we got to the gym, I did about 15 minutes of cardio and then decided to just walk outside. I was listening to music and just needed to take a moment and let the music pour over me as Jesus filled my broken spirit. I went outside and around to the back of the building and just sat down on the pavement. I put my iPod on the ground in front of me as I bowed my head and just listened to some of my favorite songs. I let Revelation Song, Amazing Love, and Worthy is the Lamb just pour over me as I sat there feeling weary and broken. And then Carrie Underwood's version of How Great Thou Art came on. I opened my tear filled eyes and saw my iPod laying on the ground in front of me. I saw its broken screen as I heard Carrie's soulful rendition of this marvelous hymn. As I heard her sing, Then sings my soul, my savior God to thee. How great thou art. How great thou art, I just looked at that broken screen. And as it was laying on the payment in front of me, I caught a reflection of the sky above. The broken screen was reflecting the clouds overhead.
In that moment, I realized so clearly that we are all broken in some way. But friends, even though we may be broken, God is so great and so mighty and can use our brokenness to reflect him. You see, our broken times draw us closer to him. We begin to realize that we are not self sufficient and that we have to depend on him. And in those broken seasons of life, we begin to depend on and then reflect his strength to others. And just like my broken iPod, we are used to play such beautiful music of dependence on and praise to the Lord.
I decided today that I'm not going to fix the screen on my iPod. Instead, I am going to let it be a visual reminder to me that even though I am broken and weak, God is so strong and so mighty. And he will use my brokenness. He will use it to draw me closer to him and he will use it to draw others closer to him. Friends, we are all broken in some way and we all have areas of our life that we need God's healing or calming touch. And it is through our brokenness that we really grab hold of where our strength comes from. Our strength does not come from within. Our strength comes from God alone, the one who is great indeed.
Every time I look at that broken screen, I will remember that day when I sat on the sidewalk at the gym, feeling so broken and so weak, but also feeling God's power and might. And I will remind myself that our brokenness and weakness allows others to see God's strength and power more clearly. And it is in those broken times when we draw on the strength of the Lord, that we can be used to reflect to others God's love, strength, and might.