Today's Devotional Thought
January 04, 2013 by Rachel Piferi
Imperfect and In Need of a Savior
I used to have this overwhelming need to be good and strong in every situation. No matter what this world threw at me, I wanted to be able to handle it with grace, poise, and ease. I wanted others to think I was strong, capable, and steady. Able to take on anything.
When I began pursuing a life of ministry, that same attitude came along. Only now, I wanted to show others that I was full of the joy, peace, and strength of the Lord all the time. I wanted to recite Bible verses and be the perfect Christian woman. You know, the perfect Jesus girl who can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and considers all my trials pure joy.
It is funny how a few failures can change that belief that I could ever be the perfect Jesus girl.
Recently, I experienced a couple of situations where my flaws and shortcomings became quite apparent. A couple of situations where I quite simply, unraveled. Struggled. Was far from the perfect Jesus girl. And some of my closest people saw it.
It is...well, humbling...
I am learning that one of the biggest temptations in life is to pretend like we have it all together. Even strive for it. I know I am so often tempted to hide my fears and weaknesses, feeling that any weakness may lead others to think that my faith is weak. We may find it difficult to trust others with our insecurities and doubts, believing that this would somehow compromise our witness or make people pull away from us.
I think those beliefs are rooted in our cultural value of self reliance and ultimately so far from what God wants us to be.
God has shown me that it is really sinful to think I can be the perfect Jesus girl and to try to lead others to think that too. In fact, my messy moments remind me that I need a Savior. My messy moments keep me on my face in front of the only One who could ever be called perfect.
Lysa TerKeurst has written, I'm okay with the fact that my life, my emotions, and my reactions are still messy at times. That's where grace steps in and wraps mercy around and around my heart, assuring me, "This, this hard stuff, is why you need a Savior. It's why you need to spend time with Him."
I guess I have messy moments to remind me of my need for a Savior. If you struggle with the desire to appear perfect, take it from someone who has been there (and on some days is still there), God doesn't expect you to be perfect. And anyone with the heart of God won't expect it either.
It is time to let go of the belief that you can be perfect and grab on to the One who is perfect.
Full of perfect love.
The Perfect Savior.