Today's Devotional Thought
August 01, 2013 by Wendy Foreman
This Crying Mama
Rachel shared with you on Monday how we started After the Miracle really to share our journey with others, to share what we have experienced and what God has shown us. We will soon celebrate 4 years on After the Miracle and she is right, there have been parts of our journey that have been joyous, painful, hurtful, happy, encouraging and we have grown so much in so many ways. I am entering a new phase of life that I am really sad about. There really is no other way to describe it.
I shared with you a few weeks back that we were taking our daughter to her college to get her classes taken care of and to take care of a few other things. Well, in just over a week we will begin moving her and then we will say good bye and we both will begin a new journey in life. I have been given a lot of advice from those who have already walked this path. I have heard how I should be happy that she has been afforded the opportunity to go to college. I have been told that I should be happy she wants to leave home and venture out on her own. I have been told that this is life and I need to understand that and move forward excited and happy for her.
I agree with all of them but can I tell you that I still cry every time I think of waking up in the morning only to see her bed empty. I cry when I think about her brother going to middle school and high school without her around to give him advice. I cry when I think about her absence in my everyday life. I don't know how to make that stop hurting. I am crying as I type this. It just doesn't seem like she has been in our home long enough to let her go. I guess my mama heart is just down right sad also because I know that when I say good bye to her and drive off that things will never be like they use to be. She will probably not come back home to live, she will meet the man that we have prayed for since she was a little girl, fall madly in love, get married after she graduates and move away. And deep down I wouldn’t want it any other way.
So ladies I guess I just wanted to share with you today my journey and how this mama heart is so sad, yet so happy as I see my girl take the next step in her life, a step into the wonderful and amazing future that I know God has for her.
I leave you today with the verse I remind my daughter of often as she prepares to start her new life, Jeremiah 29:11 - "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."