Today's Devotional Thought
February 02, 2017 by Rachel Piferi
It's Not Fair
"It's not fair."
I knew the day would come that I would hear that from my daughter. The little one who has gone to doctor's appointment after doctor's appointment for years with little complaint. The one who has taken medicine two times a day without even questioning it. The one who has missed school and not been allowed to play sports and not had chocolate or soda like other kids.
But last night, she wanted to have some "Cheez-its."
Seems simple enough.
And in her mind, not a real big deal.
But after yesterday's appointment, and a tighter restriction on food so that her kidneys could stay healthy as long as possible, Cheez-its were not an option any more.
"It's not fair."
"Why do I have to have this?"
And with those two statements, she threw herself on my bed. Cried big tears. And fell asleep with a tear-stained face.
Oh how I wanted to answer her well. And like any mom, I would take it myself in a heartbeat. I'll give up "Cheez-its" and chocolate and soda and fast food and anything processed so she could be a normal kid.
But, I can't.
This is her life to live.
This is her story.
And it is my job to walk it with her and help her tell it well.
I wish I could fully explain to her how minor this is compared to where we were 9 years ago. I wish she could understand the prayers we prayed when she was growing inside of me and the hope I begged for from God. The doctors wrote her off, asked us to terminate her. Said she couldn't be fixed.
They had no hope.
And I just wanted another day to hope.
We got that prayer. We got another day. We got three thousand, two hundred, and eighty more days of hope since that fateful February day in 2008, in fact.
We got hope.
And what I didn't entirely understand 9 years ago, I am beginning to understand now.
You see, what we got was a story that with each additional day, is building into an amazing story that tells of God.
God is writing the story.
And in this little one's life, much like every single one of us, God has a mighty story to tell about Himself through it.
It will likely be hard. And it will likely take endurance. And it will likely have moments of "It's not fair."
But the bottom line is, its not about us.
It's always been about Him.
This week in Bible study, we are studying this very concept. No coincidence, I'm certain. And we are being asked to examine how willing we are to truly abandon our perspectives and our ideas of what our lives should look like to let God be the true author of our story. And as I walk through the reality of what that can really look like, I realize that I don't think we truly understand the implications of that. We really don't know what it means to let go and to grow in whatever God has for us.
We say we want God to write our stories, but do we really mean it?
Friends, it's not easy to let go of what we want and let God author our stories. Trust me, today is a hard day for me. Today is a day of speaking truth over my own thoughts. It certainly has moments of, "It's not fair." And truth be told, I'm not sure I'll get out of bed today. Today, it is just me and my Bible and begging Him one more time to give me the strength to walk the story He's writing.
However fair it seems or doesn't seem.
But, I suppose I am learning that life was never meant to be fair. It was meant to be faith-filled. In the words of Jesus, it is meant "not to do my will but to do the will of him who sent me." (John 6:38).
At yesterday's appointment, we were counseled on what the next 10 years will likely look like for us as our littlest battles kidney disease. Dialysis. Hospital visits. Medications. Transplant. We were given new recommendations and I was left with a fresh awareness of the challenging twists that life can bring. And I was also reminded of the One who has asked me to do His work and to show Him to others.
And I will do the will of Him who sent me. In all things.
What has God asked you to walk in? What have you told God is not fair?
I imagine Jesus could have looked at the Father and said, "What? You want me to die for their sins? You want me to take their punishment so they can live? Some of them don't even seem to want it. Some of them don't even seem to want You."
"Father, it's not fair."
No it most certainly was not fair. But He did it. Because He loved us. And because He lived to do His Father's will.
I will close with the Apostle Paul's words to the Galatians, "Since this is the kind of life we have chosen, the life of the Spirit, let us make sure that we do not just hold it as an idea in our heads or a sentiment in our hearts, but work out its implications in every detail of our lives." (Galatians 5:25, MSG).
We have been called to a life of faith in which our stories reflect His glory. A life in which we can show others how Jesus is our Savior, our Strength, our Redeemer, our purpose, and our very lives. In every detail of our lives. And in all things. Don't just hold it as a lovely idea in your head or a sentiment in your heart. Work it out. And live it out in every detail of your lives.
Happy Thursday everyone...live loved out there today. And shine Him in all you do.